Digression Analysis

Well Hello?
Hello, Who’s there?
This is GOD speaking..
GOD ! oh really ..hahahahaha…let me guess you are Mr. Roger ‘God’ Simon right?
No, this is the God God!
Who the fuck is this? What kind of a joke…are you drunk..?
Hey! no! I am not drunk…I am GOD!!
What the hell…don’t disturb me again man ..you get it?

phone cut….

phone rings again!! and again!!

Hello! Can I please speak to Ms. Lydia!
Yeah I am speaking.
Hi! Listen, please dont keep the phone down. There is something I have to talk to you about.
Who is this…?
Well, I am God here…
You son of a gun..god here…god where…whats your problem man? Are you retarded? Where did you get my number?? Now listen to this..if you call me again , I am going to call the police and get you arrested. You get that? Now put the phone down and never ever call me again , you freak!!

phone cut!! thud!!

Next Day!!

There’s a mail!

mailman: Hi! This is for you. How are you Miss.
Thanks Pat. I am good.

Opens it. No reply address.

Dear Daughter,
( why would dad write me a letter? He never does that? I talked to him only yesterday! Oh yeah it must be some whim of his…funny what old people get into..yeah anyway..lets see what he has written..)

I know you are not a believer. I don’t expect you to be one either. I am just trying to make a connection here. I want to talk to you. I want to know how you feel. I want to know what you think because yours is the most restricted mind that I have come across. I am not able to get into it and it worries me. I just want to help. So tell me when can we have a conversation.
( wow!! Dad’s certainly gotten crazy )


God? WTF? Now this guy is sending letters to me, How does he know my address? Who is he? What kind of a crap prank is this? I think I should tell the police!! Yeah! He could be a dangerous person. For one, he is definitely crazy. Playing the god and all.

dialling 100.

Hi!! This is Lydia speaking.
Hello! How can we help you mam?
yeah,I have to report about a person who has been bothering me since yesterday.
Yeah Just a minute . I will hand this to Officer Jacob.
hello! So what is the problem miss lydia ..is that correct?
yes! I have to file a report against a man who has been calling me since yesterday and today he sent a letter. He thinks he is God. He says he wants to talk to me.
Do you have any suspects?
I don’t think so. I don’t think it is a practical joke coz I called all my friends and they haven’t done this .
Okay! I will like to see the letter, And we will try to find out the number that you got a call from. When would you be available?
I am right now. This is sunay so i am at home all day!
Okay , so as soon as we are done with the  tracing and all we will be there to interrogate you about the matter,
Please tell the details to Cindy. See you
Thanks a lot officer.

Cindy: Can i have your address and telephone number mam?
Yeah sure. Its A 216, Graham Street, ball park, Nevada. And the number is 98172678376.
Okay! Officer jacob will get back to you in time.

( Hmm! I just hope it turns out to be nothing serious. What madness was that? Who could it be? A stalker!! Yeah could be, i was looking pretty good that night. I am actually beautiful. hmmm. But what if it is a practical joke after all. What a fool I would have made of myself calling the police and all. But I called all the friends. If they had done they would have told me so. i don’t know. I just getting disturbed about nothing perhaps. I should get back to studying. Well, I like Maths, but not so much as I like Physics or you know the grand things, I do not like to get into the details, Its the bigger picture that amuses me.But have to do the thing anyway! )
So, group theory…some blabber about it and then again drifting into thoughts.
( What if he was really God? What rubbish he couldn’t be … what if ? Why does he want to talk to me. He said my mind is restricted. He said he can’t get into my thoughts. So, he would not be knowing what I am thinking right now right? But he knwos about other people. Why can’t he get into my head, is there something special? Is there anything wrong? Imagine!! If he were actually god  could ask him wished ..wow! would that not be great! But I am an atheist damn it! It can’t be God!! All the fantasies were just made to convince people to do good things, The kings wanted the people to be afraid of them and thats why they devised words of god, the supremo and naming their laws as his, prohibited people from going against them. Of course its all a plot of man’s. Of a great story maker. Of course there is no God! Nature is the God!! The state of being is the god and how do we know that the manifestation of god is a man! Why not a woman or why not a tree? That is all farce, Off course there is no god. But how nice it would be if there was one and who would grant me wishes, vanish all my troubles. But what if he actually was and I am saying all these things about him. What if he sends me to hell. What if he is pissed off and gets angry at me. I should not say pissed. I should not think about him not being. But how can I avoid the thoughts? They just come. Oh dear God!! What I am I thinking all this about. I should study. There!! what an irony…i don’t believe in him but i just said Oh God….ha!! what a fool kind of a person  am I? Actually I am a fool. When I should be studying all this philosophy comes to me. But is it not right to think. Whart sort of a person is that who does not think? Don’t other people think? Off course they must be thinking. Not all I guess think. Those types who word so hard, they are very practical people. They do not think about this rubbish stuff, They do what they are supposed to. How nice no? I wish I could be like them sometime. I wish I could have a single minded devotion. Perhaps, I should start considering God, Maybe then when I believe in him, he can give me the power to concentrate, But sadly, that would never happen. I have to deal with it on my own. Oh! Why did you make me like this God? He did not make you you idiot. Yeah whatever. WHy am i like this? Why could I not be like others, Why am I thinking so much all the time ? Why am I not doing my work? What is it that I have got in my head? That is the reason I am ot able to perform well. Perhaps I should blog about this. Mark also thinks about all these things yet he does great in studies. I think I am a loser. But who is a loser actually? Am i really a loser? i guess I am!!! That is why..exactly that is why I should get going and start studying. Now move it cut the crap and blog about all of it later. About this incident with the god thing also.
Writing is so purgative no! I think I should write it now else I will forget all of it. Ohh but I should not. I think I will. But noone reads my blog. Noone comments there, Whats the point of writing? I may as well let it be unwritten, But I love writing, I should have taken up wrting instead of maths, yeah!! I suck at maths. But why? I am brilliant enough !! I do not study at all. At all…thats why i suck and i am sucking big time. My mouth is getting very dirty, I should perhaps control. But spitting expletives is so cathartic. Oh How i like to use these fancy words. I have got a good vocab no? My english is good. Its at least better than most people here.

….to be continued