Why am i sad??


yet another paper beautifully screwed ….reasons?? same reasons again…
seems it is a long way to go…….

there is more to come on this because i have two more papers today…!

With Regrets and hopelessness,

~R

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Can u believe.. i have got 3 midsems tomorrow!!!!! who says there is a limit for torturing huh?

And who says that there is a limit of foolishness…wasting time writing blogs just 12 hrs b4 giving three papers …

But that’s me

~ShallowOcean

Randomly…


It is not only about dreaming….

It is also about fulfilling those dreams…

It is not only about imagining…

It is also about realizing those scenes…

It is all about getting, acheiving , succeeding, accomplishing ..you may say…

But it is all about living my life is what I say…

Three Cheers to Life and its bounties…

With lots of energy

~ShallowOcean

Coffe&TeaMaker


yep!! That’s what i am …not becuase that is my vocation but because i have got “The Electric Kettle” and i am vey happy about it :)))). Now i dont have to wait for half an hour in the canteen to get a cup of tea, that too most of the times horribly made. Waise bhi, i love my own prepared tea and coffee..This thing is helping me out in studying(!) for the mids..at least this time i am thinking about them :-|.

So, about today? It wasn’t a great day. had an extra class on a day which is supposed to be a holiday. What can be a better turn off? So starting the day with whining i am ending it without any fruits gained…Not that i am used to having very fruitful days( infact its just the contrary ) but i am supposed to have useful days in the days of exams (as if i care ;))

Anyway, life is not much fun now..i am lacking something..perhaps, the zest for living it. I think i got to sit down and recollect myself before choosing another road and that seems very important at this time. Gosh! I haven’t watched a movie in like 2 weeks. That’s making me really mad…I don’t want to screw these mid sems and that is what is preventing me from seeing the next flick …but i can control…hmmm..The last one which i saw was “House of Sand and Fog”…an AWESOME flick. Simply superb. Can’t appreciate anyone else after watching Ben Kingsley in this. If you are a movie lover and you have not watched this one ..you are surely missing something you cannot even imagine…After watching all these movies over these 2 years..i think i would have been better off as a movie critic than in this mathematics business.

Well, having faith in the line :”Everything happens for a good” ..i hope that these mid sems will come and go doing some good for me. Amen.

For the uninformed: mid sems are one heck of a trouble for students who are doing engineering.They occur two times in a semester with their great grandfather end sem occuring once. They are considered to be nightmares for not-so-studious students like me.

~Shallow-totally-lost-at-this-point-of-time-Ocean

 

The flow…


Today i spent the day differently from ususal. I did not attend any class in the first slot because i was sleeping till 1 p.m. Then i was all running around for nothing at all and wasted whole day. I just noticed that i have not seen any movie recently and that is not a good sign in my case. Not watching movies stops my brain and i do nothing. Eagerly waiting for “Rang De Basanti”. Have heard very good reviews about it.

On a different note, these days i feel a general discomfort in everything and am dreaming bad things. Don’t know if that implies something or is just the regular exam freakiness which u experience when u have 3 exams after 2 days and you have not even touched a single subject. I had thought that i iwll definitely do well this time but seems i will again have to postpone doing well till second mid sems. I have become atotal freak.

Anyway, i just read these lines somewhere and found it very good:

 I am not a star.
There is no halo over my head.
Fate doesn’t like the colour of my eyes.
Struggle and strife are old friends of mine.
Who am I ?
I am survival. I am guts. I am pride.
I like odds.
Especially when they’re
stacked against me.
Because there will
come a time when I will
stare them in the eye.
And smile the smile of
the one who’s pulled it off.
I am the guy who will have
deep lines on his face someday.
And it’ll make me look good
when I laugh.
Because that is the day
I will fear no fear.
And taste sweat that is sweet.

Ending here,

With love and courage,

~ShallowOcean

Once Again…


Seems like this is a real blogging day…enjoying my freedom to write on this 57th republic day. The major reason for this great desire to type my thoughts is the lack of a pair of ears to hear my woes:( ( everyone is busy studying , except me off course :)). Okay, so what is the trouble? The trouble is that i committed a great mistake today and i am so ashamed of committing it that i would not even like to mention it here. Not that i was solely responsible for it but i feel the responsibility. May be i am writing crap here but let me do it b’coz only this can give me some relief.

This is one of the worst times of my life and i feel that somehow i should disappear from here. I have always noticed one thing that whenever there is a thing which goes wrong…i am to be a part of it..always..

I don’t understand why are embarrasments so attracted towards me?? Perhaps, its my carelessness or my destiny. It has always been a major problem and a major obstruction of my life. I am sometimes too concerned about the fact that “what others would be thinking of my actions?” This can be easily seen b’coz only due to this i am wasting my precious time of preparation for examination here pouring out my frustation and tension.

Bored Enough?? I’ll leave you now…

~ShallowOcean

There are times….


There are times when u want to run away from this world…

There are times when u wish that you could erase urself from everyone’s mind…

There are times when u feel the need for a time machine to go back in the past…

There are times when u do not want to show your face to the world…

There are times when nothing but that happens what you want not…

There are times when life sucks…

There are times when u need to be consoled and said “Dont worry”…

There are times when u are the centre of a dart board…

There are times when u pray that this had never happened…

Those are the times of embarrasment …

Those are the times of a great great great embarrasment…

That is the time today , right now …

And i wish to run away, to be forgotten, to go back into time, to be consoled, To not to be embarassed…

To be me and to me happy…

 ~ShallowOcean